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Grandpa was always the one to do things
-with his own hands.

He built his house,
our playhouses, tepees and dream castles
-everything-
with his own hands.

Age 70 he was still climbing our roof,
(the one of the real house)
repairing it,
with his own hands.

So the worst thing
     the worst thing
     the worst thing was

when he had to watch our hands
-we all had come to help-
tend to his beloved garden
while his hands could do
                         -nothing.-

The worst thing was
when he died
-on the inside-
saying

'I am so useless.'

And I wished,
               and I wished,
                              and I wished...

he would just do something,
     something small,
     something tiny
     -anything-
     with his hands,

as a sign that he was
still there,
still grandpa,
still alive.
This one is for my grandpa Horst. He died more than a year ago.
I have been wanting to write about my grandpa - actually both my grandpas - for ages. But now it happened while I was writing the answer piece for this piece by OHiNeedTea: Dying like a dog (It's a must read. Go read it if you haven't yet. Seriously.)

Thank you guys for all the :star: and lovely comments!!! I can't keep up with thanking everyone for the :star:, but there are still very much appreciated :heart:
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Old Hands by Story-of-a-Mind ( Suggested by DailyBreadCafe and Featured by inknalcohol )
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Cole-y Featured By Owner Apr 14, 2014
brilliant. you have absolute control over your line breaks and your use of the dash is both effective and masterful.
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Story-of-a-Mind Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you very much. I fell in love with fancy formatting recently, and I am very happy you appreciate the way I am doing it.
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Archangelliot Featured By Owner Apr 14, 2014
I'm crying this was really really touching
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Story-of-a-Mind Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you so much. :tighthug: It means a lot to me to know that I was able to get the emotions through to my readers.
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Pardryll Featured By Owner Apr 14, 2014
This is so very touching - though I've never really known either of my grandfathers, I wanted to hug this one and tell him he's not useless - that he's amazing and wonderful and inspiring. And when I read the last two sections, my heart dropped - because I knew that no one would be able to hug or comfort him, because he was no longer among us.

A+, I love it!
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Story-of-a-Mind Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
:tighthug: Thank you so much! I really appreciate your wonderful comment. I feel honoured to have touched your feelings.
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TheSeventhDeadlySinS Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2014  Student Writer
No, I'm not crying, my eyes are just sweating.
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Story-of-a-Mind Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
:tighthug: Thank you. It means a lot to me to know the feelings came across.
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Vintageeasack Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2014   General Artist
This is great, sorry about your grandad.
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Story-of-a-Mind Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you very much! :tighthug: I think my grandpa is doing fine now with grandma in heaven.
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Vintageeasack Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2014   General Artist
I think he is.
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TheGalleryOfEve Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Congratulations on your well-deserved DD!!! :iconflyingheartsplz::iconlainloveplz::iconflyingheartsplz: :clap::clap::clap:
I’m very happy for you!!! :iconloveloveplz: :tighthug:
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Story-of-a-Mind Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
:tighthug: :squee: :tighthug: :squee:
Thank you so much! It is so much more fun to celebrate together!
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Uchiha-Evelene18 Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
This struck something inside me. I'm trying not to let my tears ruin my keyboard because this is an exquisite and moving piece of literature. My gramps died this year, last February, and I was crying my heart out (secretly) 'cause when he was alive, I never really minded him (even he's the one who's preparing our meals, taking care of us, gardening, etc.) and I really felt bad. So bad I'm totally screwed up. Your poem has moved me and I really appreciate this.
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Story-of-a-Mind Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Hey, thank you very much for your wonderful, moving comment. I think the time we spent and how much we minded people always seem to less after they died. Time never seems as short as it is before it is over. Try to think of the happy times you spent together, because I'm quite sure your gramps still appreciated those (a lot).
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Uchiha-Evelene18 Featured By Owner May 14, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Yeah........
I'm glad my comment made you feel moved :)
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rainvine Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2014   Filmographer
My gramp hated me and didn't want to talk to me so I'm always envious when people talk so lovingly about their grampa

the only photo I could take of my grampa was when he was sleeping, he has no idea. It's the only way I can keep him close because he'd avoid me otherwise.
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Story-of-a-Mind Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
:huggle: That is very sad to hear. I hope your gramp will come to realize how precious you are. And if he doesn't, remember that it is not your fault. Unfortunately, old people can have kind of weird ideas in their minds. Whatever weird idea caused your gramps to dislike you, I hope he can get past it.
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rainvine Featured By Owner Apr 28, 2014   Filmographer
aww thanks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Weird old people... O_O
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halocomix Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
My Pa, Clovis, now passed as well, was a mechanic and general handy-man in life. He would always be out rebuilding a lawn mower or taking one of his many cars for a ride, if he wasn't busy entertaining guests with his clever jokes and elaborate stories. Pa had built his own home here in Ohio after he and the family moved up from Tennessee in the 60s, a house which still stands in dilapidated glory to this day.
After he passed, I recall hearing stories about how he had been even more active and interesting during his younger years. Things about hitchhiking in his teens, crashing neighbors' cars, and at one point, attempting to drive a dead friend to the cemetery himself rather than have a hearse. Those are the days he lived in, even till the end, when he couldn't get out of the home due to arthritis or his weakened heart.
I like to think of Pa during the happy times, whenever they might have been, and know that they were enjoyed and are remembered.

I'm about to ruin my keyboard with tears, this poem was taken well. Very touching, and thank you for sharing.
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Story-of-a-Mind Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
:tighthug: Thank you so much for this wonderful comment and for sharing your story. It sounds like your Pa and my Grandpa could really have been best buddies. My grandpa always had a joke or a funny story at hand and when he was young he was very adventurous, too. (Made his way all to way from northern Germany down to the southern part with a friend on his bicycle in search for work.)
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WillyWRE Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
(I'm using a new account, excuse the name change)
It seems everyone's got their own great memories, and that's what brings us all together for something like this.
It was my pleasure.
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Ask-Raisinthedino Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2014
My grandpa died last weekendwe werent related but he was my best friend...
you could have talked to him for a day and when you find out he was gone...youd cry too
he was in the war,he had built thingsfor his kids but he built himself a place in my heart
he was also really close to God so i know he is in a good place but i miss him i miss him alot..
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Story-of-a-Mind Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
:tighthug: I'm sad to hear about your grandpa. It always hurts if such wonderful people leave us. And that's ok, because it means they were loved. But remember: no one can ever take away the happy times you had with him or the imprint he left in your live.
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Ask-Raisinthedino Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2014
Thanks means alot ^^
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Mun-Hee Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
This made me cry.
it is beautiful and moving. My father has worked with his hands his whole life. he use to build things all the time.
he still does but it is harder for him. he is 59 now, and really upset when his hands dont want to work right.
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Story-of-a-Mind Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
:huggle: thank you very much for your wonderful comment. Try to let your dad show you some things while he still can. It's cool to be able to do things yourself. :)
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Mun-Hee Featured By Owner May 3, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I will!
thank you so much for the wonderful advice ^^
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LovablyAwkward Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm trying not to cry. My grandfather was a hands-on person who worked his entire life. He would get so cranky when he wasn't able to do much and it broke my heart. 

Thank you so much. :)
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Story-of-a-Mind Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
:tighthug: thank you so much for your wonderful comment.
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LovablyAwkward Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you so much for this beautiful piece. :)
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sarcastic-Assassin Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2014   Photographer
I can feel the story behind this piece as I read it, very nice job, thank you for sharing.
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Story-of-a-Mind Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
:tighthug: thank you for your wonderful comment.
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Lupina24 Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
This reminds me of my dad so much. He always has to be involved with whatever project he and/or I am working on. It kills him and me when he cannot do something himself. I love it but it drives me nuts. Well done. well written. Keep it up. I'm sorry for your loss, but it looks like you have some wonderful memories of him.
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Story-of-a-Mind Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
I really do have a lot of wonderful and fun memories with him. Thank you so much for your wonderful comment. :tighthug:
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TerramArmsXIII Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
damn,....this is awesome....like really....this touches the heart real good
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Story-of-a-Mind Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you so much. It means a lot to me that this poem was able to touch your heart :huggle:
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TerramArmsXIII Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Oh np! Hey, I just made the first chapter of my novel, wish to read it.
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Story-of-a-Mind Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Sure, I'll have a look at it.
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TerramArmsXIII Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
thank you. 
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VioletGrrl Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
This hit a real note with me, my Poppa is dying and he is exactly the same way. He had a stroke and now the left side of body doesn't work, he can't even talk. He made the family business of construction. He built my house, he built his own house. Now he can't do anything without help anymore. The doctors gave him one week. It's too soon...
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Story-of-a-Mind Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
:huggle: I'm really really sorry to hear this. It hurts so much to watch people leaving (especially the loved ones). Some people are called into gods arms sooner, but it hurts a lot to be the one left behind. :huggle:
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VioletGrrl Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
I completely agree. Your story caught me at a really raw time and it really helped because it gave me someone to relate to. So thank you.
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ertar Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2014
Very impressive and touching. Thank you.
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Story-of-a-Mind Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you for your wonderful comment :huggle:
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mister7000 Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
My grandfather is just like the way yours was. This makes me so sad, yet I love it.
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Story-of-a-Mind Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you very much for the comment. Hang out with him and show him some love. You'll probably treasure any minute of it later.
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mister7000 Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Yeah. It's sad, because even though he doesn't live too far away I don't have topo many chances to go and see him. I make the most of what I can get, though.
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Ganjamira Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2014  Professional Artisan Crafter
Currently Im crying. Crying because every line reminds me of my own granpa, with his sad eyes in the wheelchair, thinking of his flowers and the work which once was his...

Its unbelievably touching - a more then well deserved DD!:heart:
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Story-of-a-Mind Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
:tighthug: thank you so much for sharing your feelings and this wonderful comment.
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